recently I read into the penal colony by Franz Kafka. It was the first work I've read by kafka other than Before the Law (although that one is quite small at just two pages). I thought into the penal colony almost seemed set in some fantasy world rather than earth for some reason, the plot of a traveller in a community with unique customs reminded me of Kino no Tabi (which i have only seen the anime of and wish to read the light novel). I really enjoyed reading it and I want to read more as I haven't read a lot recently. Some books I was reading but stopped that I wish to finish are Don Quixote and Crime and Punishment. I also want to read more visual novels (I've been thinking muramasa or 101 ways to commit suicide.) Recently I've read Grimoire Verum and some other books of that nature ( I desperately wish Magic was real! its a shame it isn't U,_U) recently I've been cutting myself a bit and cut the sigil of Lucifer from the book twice into my stomach.
I have been unemployed as of late so I've had a lot of free time recently (most of which is spent playing league of legends instead of doing anything productive) but I may seek employment soon as my funds are drying up. Recently I have been having libido issues too (spanning to around 2-3 months back). Something that surprised me was that I found myself viewing my exes instagram profile and masturbating to photos of her (which worked well) I could not imagine myself doing something like that. I found out shes dating someone else probably, I saw a guy with her in her highlights which made me feel emotional even though I want nothing to do with her
I really am some sort of disgusting insect XD